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Living without Music.

24/02/19. After this mornings outing I came home to lay on the lounge and chill a bit before I set out to do some household chores. I sat on the lounge with my phone scrolling and without realising I was singing along to loud music that was coming from one of the rooms. After a…

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24/02/19.

After this mornings outing I came home to lay on the lounge and chill a bit before I set out to do some household chores.

I sat on the lounge with my phone scrolling and without realising I was singing along to loud music that was coming from one of the rooms.

After a couple of songs I felt like something strange was happening and it took a short while to realise what it was.

Loud music was playing in my home.

That was it.. there was loud music playing in our home!.

I love listening to music and I like it loud enough that I can sing along without anyone hearing me.

I like to clean to loud music and I like to sort and potter about with loud music playing in the background.

It’s been about 3-4 years since we’ve had loud music playing in our home.

Living with a person who has severe depression and is impacted by all stimulants around him we’ve really tried not to be too noisy so that he’s comfortable and doesn’t get agitated or upset because of the noise.

It’s been so long that it’s like we’ve forgotten what it’s like to live a life without depression.

This week we’ve not only had this positive change where he’s not been impacted by the music playing loudly but he also got up and left the house on his own and went for a walk and it’s the first time in 4 years that he’s left the house alone.

Words cannot explain how I’m feeling now and whilst this is all positive stuff I’m scared to believe that this may be the end of the most draining and painful experience we’ve all been through together as a family; I’m scared maybe more so worried because this has all been our reality for far too long and I’m so looking forward to a life without depression that I worry what a positive, happy, healthy reality could look like because it’s been so foreign to us.

I hope to hear more loud music playing from the room and I so look forward to another text message advising that he’s going out.

I SO look forward to living without depression and I honestly can’t wait!.

#hope #happiness #bigson #pattysjourney #ourrealityisonethatinvolvesthecomplexitiesofmentalhealth #depression #music #soulfood

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