The Patty project

I’m currently on a 4 day vacation with the family; we’re on a cruise and the weather has been great.

Today is the day that we dock and get off the ship for an island day trip.

Everyone but me are busy having fun in the sun. They’ve booked snorkelling gear, kayaks and the kids are playing in the sand and water.

They’re all so used to me hiding from the sun and heat that nobody asks what I’m hoping to do or experience.

I’ve been uncomfortably overweight for so long that they all know I’d rather sit somewhere on my own over exposing my uncomfortable body to the world.

I’ve recently lost 11 kg’s and if you know me it’ll be obvious that I’ve lost some weight.

My goal is to lose 20 kg’s in 3 months so that I can book in to have excess skin around my abdomen, back, arms and breasts surgically removed.

I’m determined so I know that I can accomplish this goal; knowing that this will be my last ‘fat and saggy’ summer means that I’m a little more comfortable than usual when it comes to exposing my skin.

Whilst sitting on the beach I got hot so I took off my kimono and sat wearing a tank top and pants – I asked for a photo and spent a good few minutes trying to ‘tuck’ my skin away – there’s so much of it that it’s next to impossible.

My face is thinner and I can see where my collarbone sits (I rarely see bone structure because of my ‘extra padding’) but from top to toe sagging skin is what consumes my body.

I can’t wait to finally book in with a surgeon; I don’t want to live like this anymore.

I can already ‘sense’ the change and I can ‘feel’ the excitement of what a healthier, lighter and more comfortable body will provide me.

Exciting times ahead!